Welcome to Alwaysremember

In August 2002, my life changed in an unimaginable way. My husband and I were going to have a baby. Fast forward to May 3, 2003. My life changed yet again in a most unimaginable way. The day I met my son. The day I had to say hello and then goodbye. Zackery was stillborn May 3, 2003 at 4:44 pm at 39 weeks due to what has been determined as unknown causes. He was absolutely perfect in every way. He was 7 lbs 10 oz and 19.25 inches long. He had 10 fingers and 10 toes and the smallest of tufts of red hair on his head. I will never know his true eye colour nor will I know what he sounds like when he laughs or cries. I will never know how smart he is, nor will I know exactly whom he looked like more, myself or my husband.

If you have read this far, you likely have suffered a pregnancy loss of some kind. And for that, I am so sorry that you have joined this “club”.

In the years that have passed, there are still days where I am overcome with emotion just thinking of Zackery. But the number of good days far outnumber the bad. Its not that I don’t think of him on a daily basis, but I can now think of him and smile. I can talk about him without crying (not every time though!). I am now at a place in my grief (because, lets be honest, we will always be grieving!) where I am wanting to help others through their grief. I want you to know you are not alone! What you are feeling is completely normal and that you are now a different person and others may not like that new person.

I am wanting this website to be a safe have for those that are experiencing a loss no matter where it is in the pregnancy nor if it happens after birth.

And along with where I am in my stage of grief, I am wanting this website to grow and mature into something Zackery can be proud of. We will Always Remember!!!